………. I chose to write. Probably because it’s the one thing I don’t hesitate with. Because it’s the one genuine thing in a carefully constructed persona. A way to break away from the monotony of, well…wasting my time, really. An escape to avoid my escapes out of work. A paved road for the wanderings and wonderings of the intellect (if any!). Because the devil sure has a hell of a time in my idle mind. It’s not his workshop, it’s his inventory, his very own research lab! He churns out one evil concoction after another, does an enormous amount of experimental mixing and ends up sizzling the contents of my brain out, leaving nothing but a lot a residue that reeks of disuse and misuse. And he does this all own his own, that swine, leaving the cogs of my mind abandoned, neglected to rust. I am afraid to wake up one fine day and find, o horror of horrors! the mind machinery weak, brittle and incompetent.
No, I want that devil out. Out of his job, his place and my life. Angelic virtues will probably never visit the blighted house of chaos that my brain is, but the devil and his twisted schemes are not allowed in my mind.
But just as important as kicking out devils, is bringing in light (bah!). The wise would say that enlightenment, the search within, is a continuous, advancing journey. I am however inclined to believe that given the warped human nature, enlightenment is a freakish, zigzagging to and fro process: the journey, the return journey, the journey returns, the journey underground, journey reloaded, blah…. The only way I know I can even think of venturing into this crazy trip is by following the pen. I am sure it knows the way. If not, it might just know a way around the whole thing, which would be the best!
So here is to writing, to chasing away dark, hoping for light and unlocking a psyche unknown to myself, the only keys to that being that of the keyboard. Because with it, I can flow, fly, fall, fret and fly again, even without any wings to speak of. All those grievously injured consequentially, shall be awarded no compensation and will be considered collateral damage! Happy reading, hopefully!
